Blogger Rant

It's not so much a rant as just something that must be said.

For the last year I have been unemployed because my last employer; who will remain unnamed because it'll only make me want to go blow something up (in a video game... not really in to serving jail time), decided to fire me for being sick. Okay so it was a no call no show, but I was still sick, I did see a doctor and I did try to explain things to him, but his mind had been made up to find a way to fire me since I made it know that I didn't find it okay for him to promote his girlfriend to manager over me (background, i had been working for these people for about three years when she got hired, four by the time she was promoted and he was married at the time they hooked up. And they were and as far as I know still together despite what they will try to tell you).

So I've spent the last year working in theater, on my media art stuff and now writing and blogging trying to find my niche. Some of the theater work does pay and I know it's not a steady job, but it is work and when I do have money I help out where I can. And with any luck my blog will start making money as I write and maybe once my skills are a little better I'll start writing a book or something. Point is I never stopped looking for a job all this time and I have been doing things that will bring money in every now and again.

But it's tough going as most of the positions I've seen open are management positions and I've had no management training. I could have, but well I've alright explained why.

However, the way my parents and my sister talk all I do is play on the PS3 and on my computer and laze about doing nothing at all. I heard my mom and my sister talking about it again like I wasn't in the house and couldn't hear them. And they wonder why I get all pissed off when they bring it up. I'm trying, I'm doing everything I can think of and all you can do is assume that I just don't care.

And they are always telling me that this place is hiring and that place is hiring, but it's always crap jobs at fast food places. I'm not a damn high school drop out. Look out for stuff I care about, things you know I'll half way enjoy doing.

The live theater stage here in town, The Paramount, that I work shows in all the time is talking about updating their lighting system. I'm going to be reapplying there in hopes to get on as one of the lighting technicians (with any luck at all). I just reapplied today for the Home Depot here in town. I'm not a lazy good for nothing and to be treated as such is more than a pain in the ass.

Maybe I'm not out everyday begging on hands and knees for any old job that come available, but I don't spend every hour of every day playing on the computer and the playstation. I have an older computer, I have three games on here and I can't get near the playstation unless my sister is at a friends or at work. So in the mean time, I'm keeping my eyes and ears open for stuff and applying for the things I think I'll enjoy while working on theater, media arts and writing.

Maybe It's not "fair" for me to still be unemployed a whole year later, but I'm not getting a lot of support either. So who's really to blame here?